Emma Hounslow 2018

The Meaning Of Contradiction

I am without confidence,

Yet I have quite the ego.

I want to spin my life around,

Yet I want to die.

I want people to think I own no weakness,

Yet all I do is cry.

I want to be the best at everything,

Yet I cannot be bothered to try.

I want to cease hurting myself,

Yet that is all I seem to do.

I don’t want them seeing my scars,

Yet I want them to know my fear.

When I wake up I want happiness,

Yet in reality,

all I really want,

is not to wake up at all.