Emma Hounslow 2018
The Meaning Of Contradiction
I am without confidence,
Yet I have quite the ego.
I want to spin my life around,
Yet I want to die.
I want people to think I own no weakness,
Yet all I do is cry.
I want to be the best at everything,
Yet I cannot be bothered to try.
I want to cease hurting myself,
Yet that is all I seem to do.
I don’t want them seeing my scars,
Yet I want them to know my fear.
When I wake up I want happiness,
Yet in reality,
all I really want,
is not to wake up at all.